Who am I?

Who am I? I am lost and I am found. I hate and I love. I don't know what side is mine, I am out of balance. And my world is gone...
EDIT:5/5/09
Okay last update I promise, okay be careful not to fave if you already have!
4/29/09
Okay I redid her coat so make it look not so messy and I put the Yin and Yang symbol in front, tell me how it looks! Thanks for the help too!

Contest Entry!
About this Piece:
Here is where I have illustrated a good and bad side within one creature. And she can't find out what she is. Is she good or bad? Can she love someone or will she destroy them with her hate.... So she's having a battle with herself that she can't win.

Hey peeps!
Well, you all have convinced me... so here is my entry to the good vs evil-bring your vision to life contest! SO how does it look? Better or worse? I tried a bit of a different shading style, which may or may not have been a good idea.. But anyway, if you see something that should be fixed please let me know. In a moment I'll upload a part from this drawing that I love. More comments are welcome!
Close up: Close up!<-----

Credits
Image is © to Victoria Nabours
Horse ref: [link]
Yin and Yang Symbol:[link]